Success

It's precisely how I thought it would come along vs. how I feel getting there. Lasana is older and wiser, so this is probably a good laugh for him. I, however, have really been struggling with accepting that everything is not completely effortless nor can it always appear that way. 

I guess the squiggles are much more interesting when you look at them on paper. The picture resembles how I used to draw scrambled eggs, a head of curls, or popcorn in my primary years. Now those turns, and bends and curves are real life changes and all the uncertainties that come along with them. At times, it's completely confusing, frustrating and sometimes dismantles confidence. Little "wins" in life give me a boost. Like being asked to lead on a project at work, making the most perfect homemade muesli in my electric oven, nailing every piece of choreography in dance class after only seeing my dance instructor (who danced professionally for 20 years) do it once, getting through an entire hot yoga class without losing my breath or getting sweaty...

Easy to see the problem here when fingers hit the keypad. When I become skilled at something, suddenly I expect that I should be able to do and finish with perfection beyond human capability. Just one too many impossible expectations. Going to have to work on cutting some of those out and embracing the squiggles and color outside the line. Possibly even getting comfortable with doing it intentionally. Gulp!

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